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Sleep and other minor details

I slept 7 hours straight last night after taking just 100 mg trazodone!

Let me back up. I have been having trouble sleeping, along with incipient hypomania, for about 2 weeks now. I have doubled up on my trazodone, which helped quite a bit but I still wasn’t sleeping enough for awhile. It appears that I am finally getting better — maybe! I just have to make sure this trend continues and isn’t just a fluke!

I often think of the song “Last Night I Didn’t Get To Sleep” by the Fifth Dimension (I love the Fifth Dimension!):

Last night I didn’t get to sleep at all
The sleeping pill I took was just a waste of time
I couldn’t close my eyes ’cause [my wild plans and grandiose thoughts] were on my mind….

(that’s the bipolar version, lol)

Under the category of “other minor details,” I cannot seem to get my dishes done. I know that most people would say, ‘just make up your mind and do it.’ Well it’s not that simple for me. I know that I can’t use bipolar as an excuse for procrastination or lack of self-control, but it’s clear that my moods do affect my ability to behave rationally and exercise self-control.

My birthson and his family went to the San Antonio Zoo on Saturday. He posted some pictures on
His Blog. (Many people say he looks just like me!) That precious little boy with them is my grandson. I’m so proud!

My daughter is coming home from nursing school this weekend — they have Fall Break through Tuesday. This semester she is doing Psych along with Critical Care. A few days ago she called me almost in tears — they had been learning about bipolar disorder and she wanted to apologize for not understanding my situation when she was a teenager! I was so touched I cried too. I explained I had never expected her to understand; she was my child and it was not her job, at that time, to be there for me. It was my job to be there for her, as her mother. And it was my pleasure. Now that she has grown into a young adult (who is often wiser than I am!), we’ve begun moving to mutual support.

I will see my son later in the month, when he has his band concert. I don’ t know if his school even has fall break, but if they did he would probably have to work.

I guess I go start on those dishes 😉   FlyLady says: ‘You can do anything for 15 minutes!’

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October 7, 2008 at 8:36 am Leave a comment


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